Hey! I wanted a progessive post, and this is... slightly one.
Yep, my first video in two/three years is up on Youtube. I would link it, but chances are you came from there anyway. Theres loads I hate about it: Audio quality; the seam where two films are used; the fact my computor can't play it without lagging. And my voice... oh, my voice...
But still, front foot forward, or something like that. Hopefully I'll improve now, and if I'm still posting then somethings going right. And I've got the flashes to work on...
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Desolate
For the first time in my life, I feel I'm existing rather than living; drifting through life until something happens.
For those who can't read into every word, I'll elaborate. I'll start with the play. Last week my school put on 'Death of a Salesman', and it was very well recievedby the people who saw it. The guy playing Willy did incredibly well, considering 75% of the play is him. I always thought I was a crap yet ambitious actor (Thanks to my voice), but people have told me I did well, and could benefit from always having that confidence. So if I can act, that's one less excuse for constantly not doing any filming. And now I also have more free time in the week, which I really don't need more of.
You see, since I booted up the Xbox again in August 2009, I've been addicted to it. Thinking about it, I could spend 30 hours a week on it. Not enougth to be harmful, but enougth to affect grades and freetime. Which brings me to school. I had an Economics module in January, and got a D. So I'm taking the chance and completely revoltionising how I work. Except... thinking about Year 13 and Uni makes me feel more isolated. I'm isolated now out of choice, and partially because I joined the school after the groups formed, so if I wanted t change that at uni I could... in theory. I'll probaly spend 5 years reclused in my room, alone.
And year 13... the only thing keeping me heading for it is one promise I made to myself about someone. Otherwise, I'ld be constantly reconsidering my path here. But no matter what I do, I keep looking too long term and thinking 'Will this matter in 5 years?'. How many 17 year olds do that? Barely any. They consider going out and getting hammered a worthwhile thing. I look at my plan for a screenplay and get demoralised.
...
God, that was a depressing read.
Tell you what, if you read that, you get 10 Orhun Points. Treat them wisely. No, don't dunk them-- I have them back, actually. How about a progressive post next time? Yeah. OK.
For those who can't read into every word, I'll elaborate. I'll start with the play. Last week my school put on 'Death of a Salesman', and it was very well recievedby the people who saw it. The guy playing Willy did incredibly well, considering 75% of the play is him. I always thought I was a crap yet ambitious actor (Thanks to my voice), but people have told me I did well, and could benefit from always having that confidence. So if I can act, that's one less excuse for constantly not doing any filming. And now I also have more free time in the week, which I really don't need more of.
You see, since I booted up the Xbox again in August 2009, I've been addicted to it. Thinking about it, I could spend 30 hours a week on it. Not enougth to be harmful, but enougth to affect grades and freetime. Which brings me to school. I had an Economics module in January, and got a D. So I'm taking the chance and completely revoltionising how I work. Except... thinking about Year 13 and Uni makes me feel more isolated. I'm isolated now out of choice, and partially because I joined the school after the groups formed, so if I wanted t change that at uni I could... in theory. I'll probaly spend 5 years reclused in my room, alone.
And year 13... the only thing keeping me heading for it is one promise I made to myself about someone. Otherwise, I'ld be constantly reconsidering my path here. But no matter what I do, I keep looking too long term and thinking 'Will this matter in 5 years?'. How many 17 year olds do that? Barely any. They consider going out and getting hammered a worthwhile thing. I look at my plan for a screenplay and get demoralised.
...
God, that was a depressing read.
Tell you what, if you read that, you get 10 Orhun Points. Treat them wisely. No, don't dunk them-- I have them back, actually. How about a progressive post next time? Yeah. OK.
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